Trusting the Wave 🌊

Where control dissolves and surrender begins...

I’m sitting here in my living room with my cup of chai tea, of course, trying to write a reflection for April… and I’ve got nothing.

We’re in a void Moon right now, that in-between space where the Moon has left one sign but hasn’t yet entered the next, and I can feel that void within me, too.

The emptiness this month has left behind.

The space created by everything that’s been stripped away, the plans I had so carefully crafted, the sense of security I thought I could rely on, the stability I believed I had built.

And here I am, feeling bare, raw, and vulnerable, almost as if I’ve been brought down to the ground with no clear sense of how to get back up and move forward.

My mind feels like it’s spinning, and yet my body is asking me to do the opposite, to pause, to sit, to simply be here with it all.

Wow… I didn’t expect these words to come out like this, but I guess this is where I am on this last day of April, on the edge of a powerful Full Moon in Scorpio.

This is me, unfiltered. And yes, we went deep real fast 😅

I found myself going back to the reflections I wrote earlier this month, right after I left the job that wasn’t in alignment. You can read it here, and one thing stood out to me, even now, weeks later.

Letting go is not a loss; it is the space for what is true.

That line hit me all over again.

Because truth… has been the theme of April for me.

I was met with so much dishonesty from others this month, and instead of just focusing on that, I asked myself a harder question: where am I being dishonest with myself?

And the moment I dared to go there, it felt like opening a dam. Everything came flooding out, emotions I couldn’t contain anymore.

There was grief, a lot of it. Sadness, I had to finally sit with. I had to slow down, stop for a couple of days, and just feel it all.

But alongside that, there were also signs, clear ones, from the Universe pointing me back to this same theme.

And honestly, with a Full Moon in Scorpio approaching, and Taurus season activating my 8th house, there’s no way around it.

You can’t lie to yourself in this energy.
You’re being asked to meet your shadow and reconnect with your truth.

And here’s the thing, I’m still not fully able to articulate what that truth is.

But I feel it.

I feel that somewhere, in some way, I’m not fully living in integrity. I’m not fully living the life I’m meant to live. Something is still holding me back.

And I know that in order to move forward, I need to let that go.

It reminds me of the energy we’re moving into with all the outer planets now settled into fire and air signs. There’s no going back.

It’s like a wildfire, once it burns everything to the ground, you can’t restore what was. You’re left with ashes, with the memory of what used to be, and you’re asked to rebuild from there.

That’s exactly how I feel right now.

I was listening to my favorite astrology podcast, The Astrology Lounge by Stephanie Powers, and there was a moment in the episode that felt like a direct call-out.

She shared a question that has been sitting with me ever since, one I’ve also brought into my Skool community:

What do you need to let go of that is hard, but will set you free?

I’m still sitting with that. The answer hasn’t fully revealed itself yet.

But maybe this is your invitation to sit with it, too.

Another message that has been coming up again and again, not just this month, but over the past couple of years, since the lunar nodes moved into Virgo and Pisces and my Progressed Moon shifted into Pisces too… what a ride.

Honestly, I think I need to take up surfing at this point 😅

You’ve probably guessed it already.

The lesson is… surrender.

Can we just remove this word from the vocabulary, please?
My Virgo rising and Virgo Jupiter in the 12th house cannot hear it one more time 😂

At the beginning, I didn’t understand this word at all. I didn’t know what it really meant, how to apply it, or why it kept showing up everywhere.

Now I see it differently. It’s a powerful word.
And more often than not, it’s the only way forward.

But let’s break it down, because surrender is often misunderstood.

Surrender does not mean giving up. It means giving in. Giving in to something you cannot control. Something bigger than your human self, your mind, your ego.

And I know… this is where many of us resist.
Because it requires letting go of control.

And if you’re anything like me, you love control.

But here’s the truth: control is an illusion.

Even when you think you have everything figured out, even when things seem to go according to plan, they’re not really in your control.

Control, like time, lives in the mind. It’s something our logical brain creates to feel safe, and yes, it serves a purpose in this 3D world. But it’s not the full truth.

Because we are not just our minds. We are not just our bodies. We are spiritual beings having a human experience. We are souls. We are part of something much bigger, something our minds can’t fully grasp.

And when we begin to truly surrender to that…
that’s when we start living in alignment.

With nature.
With the cosmos.
With our soul.

Now, if you’ve figured out exactly how to do that consistently, please let me know… my Virgo mind would love a step-by-step guide 😂

But the truth is, there isn’t one.

Surrender isn’t a formula. It’s a personal journey.

It’s something you learn by living it.

To me, it feels a lot like riding a wave.

If you fight the current, you fall. You exhaust yourself. Maybe you even get hurt.

But if you learn to read the wave, to wait for it, to move with it instead of against it that’s when things flow. That’s when you ride it.

(Again, this is purely theoretical, so don’t quote me on my surfing skills 😂)

But the metaphor stands. Life is like that.

Some days, there are no waves.
Some days, they’re intense and overwhelming.
Some days, they’re soft and easy.

And when you stop trying to control every outcome, when you stop gripping so tightly to how things should be… life starts to feel different.

More spacious.
More fluid.
More… alive.

I don’t even know if “easy” is the right word.
But it feels more aligned.

And at the end of the day, the choice is always yours.

Will you surrender to the wave… or stay in the illusion of control?

Choose wisely.

Photo by Thomas Ashlock on Unsplash

And as we come to the end of this reflection, and the end of this month, I want to leave you with a few journal prompts to sit with this weekend, if you feel called.

• What did April bring up for me?

• What themes kept repeating themselves this month?

• What truths have been revealed to me, even the uncomfortable ones?

• Where am I trying to control something that is actually holding me back?

• What do I need to let go of in order to move forward?

I’ll be sitting with these questions myself over the weekend, and I’ll come back to share what unfolds once I have a bit more clarity and perspective.

If anything came up for you while reading this, I would truly love to hear from you. You can share in the comments or send me a private message.

I hope this weekend, and this Full Moon, support you in releasing what no longer serves you, reconnecting with your truth, and gently guiding you toward the life you truly desire.

Wishing you a soft and meaningful end to April.

Peace & Love,
Luana

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